i don’t really need to be in a relationship. i’m actually satisfied with where i’m at right now. as much as i complain about not having someone there, i’m really okay on my own. i don’t mind it at all. getting ready for sophia, my family & building my relationship with god is really all i need to be focused on right now :)
i wish sophias dad would stop getting people to write me, its quite annoying. he doesn’t understand like at all. there is no reason for me to be talking to him right now. he’s not doing anything for me at all right now, hes not paying for my doctors visits, he’s not feeding me or doing anything at all that requires us to talk daily. i already told him a million times i’d contact him when sophia was born & he still wants to be up my ass. i understand that he wants to be in the babys life & i’m not saying that he can’t but shes not even here yet bro.
its really starting to hit me that i’m a mother. i’m doing it all alone but i know that it will be done, i have plenty of support from family & friends. i’m so blessed for everything. getting pregnant at nineteen has forced me to grow up & start thinking not only about myself but for my baby. i don’t regret her at all but i wish i would of waited.